I became a born-again Christian in 2014, holding a fundamentalist, literal view of the scriptures. But in 2022, I began to question my faith. During that time, I became involved with a close group of believers who held very different theological convictions. Through many deep and honest debates, I came to a startling realization: we each believed the other was sincerely misled. That realization shook me—I saw that I could be just as wrong about what I believed as they might be. And that's when the avalanche began. I needed to pursue the truth, so I began to question everything, even the things I took for granted. I knew these questions wouldn't be resolved quickly, so I started writing them down. Before long, the document had grown to several pages. It all started with what seemed like "insignificant" issues:
- Does Paul really mean all men will be justified in Romans 5:18?
- Is the mustard seed really the smallest of all seeds, like Jesus says in Mark 4:31?
- Why does Mark 1:2 quote Malachi and Isaiah when he says, "as it is written in Isaiah the prophet"?
The scope of my questions became broader:
- Can the Bible have errors and still be infallible in its message?
- Why do Jews and Muslims reject the deity of Jesus when it seems plainly obvious?
- Can God use myths, legends, and stories to communicate his message?
Finally, my questions became faith-shaking:
- Why does an omnipotent and omnibenevolent God allow suffering?
- Why did God create the universe if he did not need to?
- Why would God create scientific evidence that appears to be at odds with the Bible?
- Is my belief in eternal conscious torment (hell) that lasts longer than a googolplex (1010100) years reasonable?
As I dug deeper, I quickly realized that there was a growing body of evidence and arguments against my faith that I simply couldn't dismiss or explain away. These weren't surface-level doubts—they were substantial challenges to the core tenets of the worldview I had built my life around. Once I knew that I could be wrong, the apparent contradictions in the Bible, historical and scientific problems, and theological dilemmas became impossible to ignore. The more I tried to resolve these issues, the more I found myself forced to confront uncomfortable truths and reconsider assumptions I had always taken for granted.
That's why I created this website: to document and organize the data, questions, and discoveries that have shaken my faith. This is a sincere attempt to grapple with the evidence against Christianity and to help others do the same.
At this point, I don't know what label fits me best: Christian, agnostic, atheist, or something else. Regardless of where you or I stand, I hope you find the information on this website honest, thought-provoking, and informative.
Timeline
My Beliefs
God
I find insufficient evidence to confirm the existence of Yahweh.
The scale of indiscriminate suffering and unanswered prayers are the most significant challenges to the existence of an omnipotent, omniscient, omnipresent, and benevolent God.
Doctrines about God's nature face significant logical issues and lack clear, undisputed evidence.
The Bible
The Bible in both Old and New Testaments contains internal inconsistencies, discrepancies, mistakes, and errors.
Narratives including the Flood of Noah, the Exodus, and the Conquest of Canaan are not supported by extra-biblical evidence.
The Old Testament includes morally problematic passages that are inconsistent with an all-loving God, including commands to kill infants and children, instruction for beating slaves, and endorsement of the marrying of virgin war captives.
The Gospels are theological stories based on a historical Jesus in the context of first-century Judaism. They are anonymous documents, written decades after the purported events, by non-eyewitnesses, in a language that neither Jesus nor his apostles spoke, and share a significant amount of direct copying, interpolation, and variants.
The Pentateuch was not written by Moses in 1600 BCE but was a later composition in around 800 CE to unify the scattered Jewish people.
The existence of Abraham, Moses, Noah, and other major biblical patriarchs is ultimately unknowable.
The Bible teaches a flat, 6000-year old Earth with a solid dome separating the waters of the heavens from the waters of the Earth.
Jesus
Jesus was a preacher in first-century Judea who was venerated by his followers, eventually concluding he was God himself.
The birth narratives about Jesus in Matthew and Luke are theological constructions that did not occur in reality, for they differ significantly in details, chronology, and geography.
Claims of fulfilled Old Testament prophecy regarding Jesus are later theological interpretations rather than clear, pre-existing predictions matching his life events, as indicated by phrases such as "this took place to fulfill..."
The resurrection narratives in the Gospels contain contradictions regarding who discovered the empty tomb, what they saw, what time of day it was, and the appearances of Jesus, indicating that they are not historical accounts.
Nature
Evolution by natural selection provides a well-supported naturalistic explanation for the diversity of life.
Morality is as a combination of evolved social instincts, cultural norms, and reasoned ethical frameworks aimed at well-being and survival.
Cosmological models offer a coherent account for the evolution and large-scale structure of the universe.
Current science cannot explain abiogenesis (the origin of life from non-life) or the initial state of our universe at the moment of the Big Bang.
Logic, time, and the uniformity of nature are necessary properties of the universe that are not contingent.